I’ve always hated to be asked, when you were little what did you want to be when you grew up. For one thing, that was a lonnnnnggggg time ago, and second, I never thought about it. Same thing at work: where do you want to be in 5 years? Alive, happy, successful, not broke, not ill, not much else comes to mind.
Thinking back over the patterns in my life, the pattern of taking things just a step at a time is what I see. When I got divorced at 21 I just concentrated on putting one foot in front of the other. I was heartbroken and humiliated, but I knew I had to move forward even if it was just with little steps. I decided not to go back to college because it seemed to me at the time like a step backwards. It was important for me to move forward – to lean into my life.
I never had a big career plan, I just took the next opportunity that seemed right to me at the time. I even moved to LA in 1985 not knowing anyone, but it was the right thing to do at that time, and I didn’t have any doubts. When I got laid off 7 years later, it was an easy decision to move back to Seattle.
When I got laid off again in 2009 I had to decide whether to look for another corporate job or start my own coaching business. Finding another corporate job would have been the comfortable, familiar route, but I had already decided I wanted to be a professional coach. I wanted to stop doing all the ‘corporate’ stuff and move forward in a career that expresses who I’ve always been as person. Like Michelangelo, I chipped away at the marble until the statue appeared.
Thinking back over these scenarios I see a pattern. I haven’t forced big leaps, I’ve just made decisions when I’ve come to a crossroads and always with the intent of moving forward even when it was scary.
Sometimes a client will describe their career as being an escalator that they stepped on out of college, and they’ve just passively ridden along ever since. Now they don’t like where they’ve ended up and want a career makeover. What’s missing for them is an overall vision of the direction they want to take.
The women’s magazines lately have featured a theme of reinvention and makeovers. The thought is tempting: sit in a chair for 2 hours and let someone else give me new hair, makeup and clothing and I’ll be a new me. Or spend 10 days on a structured eating, exercise and journaling program, and I’ll be reinvented at the end. Tempting. I’d like to snap my fingers and be different, but I know it doesn’t work like that, at least not for me. That’s just not how I’m wired.
I’m a ‘one foot in front of the other’ person. What works for me is to have a vision of the overall direction I want to go, and then just move forward one step at a time. The progress seems glacial until you look back over a span of time. I have some friends who set goals and then focus all their energy on meeting them, but they sometimes lack that higher-level vision of where they want their lives to go. It’s like they’re running wind sprints all the time.
Make a list of the big change points and crossroads in your life. Think about the patterns and recurring themes. What insights do you get? What lessons are you being given the chance to learn, over and over again? Do you think you ‘should be’ one way, but when you look back over your life, do you see someone different? Instead of feeling bad or inadequate, try working with how you’re wired. You don’t have to settle for status quo, but move forward and approach changes in a way that works for you and works with who you are.